What I Am Not
Posted by aplecompte on March 17th, 2009
I forget the beginning, but there is no question that I firmly identify with my ego mind, separate from God. The ego has a thought system that upholds its purpose, which is to prove that I separated from God. Everything I believe is rooted in a fearful past, which has no reality. The world is neutral and there is no causation in it. But I am impelled to ascribe meaning to it because I, the ego, fear God and think I am in competition with Him about who I am.
I make up the world I see by projecting images and feelings onto it. Forgetting I projected them, I see the prejudiced images and think I am just now determining what they mean. It is a dream that brings me nothing of value. I feel lonely and afraid, suffer, compete, defend myself, have conflicted relationships and die. I think that other people, God and mother nature are the cause, but it is all in my mind. I am doing this to myself. I am not the ego. The Holy Spirit is waiting to welcome me to the reality of God’s peace and joy now.
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