Watching My Mind
The process
Posted by aplecompte on December 8th, 2009
I pay attention to what I am thinking and feeling. I notice when I am not at peace and ask myself what is causing my upset. I often think my upset is caused by a person, event or situation.
I am wrong. I need to remember that I am never upset for the reason I think, that the reason for my upset is never in form.
What is upsetting me is my thought that I would be happier if something in form were different. This thought is a conclusion based on my underlying beliefs:
- I believe that I am a person in a body with a private mind, separate from God and my brothers.
- I see myself as a vulnerable figure in the world, at the effect of people, events and situations.
- I believe that I have meaningful preferences and the ability judge differences as to what is in my own best interest.
- I believe that linear time is real, and that I can make choices between specific options in the world.
- I believe there is something meaningful to do.
- Deep down I believe I’m guilty of the sin of separating from God and deserve punishment.
All of these beliefs are false. They all derive from my present valuing of the ego and its purpose of separation (fear, guilt, death).
My only real choice is the meaning I give to a situation. I can choose to give it the Holy Spirit’s purpose of forgiveness (peace, love, joy). To forgive is to see the false as false. To hold the Holy Spirit's purpose is to want the peace of God.
I become still, open to the Holy Spirit, and see that I am not the ego. I see the ego beliefs are false. They are producing unreal appearances, as if an imagined past were present.
- I am not a person, not a personality, not a self-concept. That is a fictional egoic construct maintained by projection and misperception. I am the Holy Son of God. The body is not real; it has lacks and needs; it seems to sicken of itself. It is a fence made to perpetuate separation, suffering and death. I am wholly and completely mind/spirit. There is no death. I have no private thoughts. I am not separate. There is only one mind.
- There is no world, only fear projected, a dream of unreal effects. I am spirit/mind, I am cause, I am the dreamer of the dream. I can simply wake up.
- I do not know anything. The world’s pain and pleasure are the same. The differences I perceive are false. I cannot judge. I do not know what anything is for, and I do not know my own best interest.
- Linear time is a moment’s madness being constantly replayed; there is only now. There is only eternal life. The specifics I think I perceive are all the same. The script is written.
- I need do nothing. There is nothing real to do.
- I am God’s Son. Separation is not possible. I am His holy Sinlessness Itself. God’s Will for me is perfect happiness, peace and joy for ever and ever.
I listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit. I think the Thoughts of God. I am at peace.
Tags: Body, Ego, Forgiveness, Guilt, Judgment
