The Unfairness Game
The ego’s use of guilt
Posted by aplecompte on April 20th, 2009
I believe I separated from God—an attack on God and a huge sin. I felt tremendously guilty and afraid of punishment. So I tried to escape by falling asleep and letting the ego thought system take over my mind. Now I identify with the ego mind and my body. The ego’s purpose is to prove that guilt is real, but that it is my brother who is guilty; I am innocent. To accomplish this purpose the ego has me play the Unfairness Game in my relationships. T-26.X.5
The Unfairness Game works like this:
I project my guilt feelings onto my brother. I want him to be the guilty party. What is he guilty of? The same thing I think I am guilty of—sinful attack. How can I demonstrate this? Projection (unconscious) makes perception (conscious). I have my eyes and ears perceive my brother treating me unfairly. He is blatantly attacking my innocence.
How can I prove to myself and to my brother that he treated me unfairly? How can I really make it stick? My sick body and my mental suffering bear witness to my brother’s guilt. They scream, “Look what you have done to me!” I hold a picture of my crucifixion up to him and say, “You are the cause of my loss.”
I play this game every day. Every time I am upset for any reason I am playing this game. I am saying that something is making me unhappy. This is impossible. Nothing in the world can make me unhappy because there is no causation in the world. The world is a projection of my mind. Its source is in my mind. Only my own thoughts can make me unhappy. I am doing his to myself. It is a lose/lose game that locks me and my brother in hell.
The Holy Spirit can help me turn this into a win/win game. I remember God’s love for me and my invulnerability as spirit/mind. I become aware that I am dreaming. My brother did not attack me. Mind cannot attack; what is one cannot attack itself. I attest to my brother’s innocence by letting my false attack thoughts go and allowing the Holy Spirit to replace them with a miracle. The Holy Spirit takes away from my body all signs of accusation and blame. A healed and happy me witnesses to the eternal truth I cannot be hurt, and points to my innocence and his. With healing as its purpose “the body can become a sign of life, a promise of redemption, and a breath of immortality” T-27.I.10
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