How I’m Stuck
And how it shifts
Posted by aplecompte on November 14th, 2009
My mind is vast, all-inclusive and joyful.
But I have restricted myself to a sleeping ego state in which my “thinking” is the internal verbalization of my reactions to perceived images. This gives me the illusion of knowing what is going on. People-images seem to confirm my “reality,” but they are merely acting out wishes that I forget having made. I am the one projecting the images in the vain hope of putting fear out of my mind. It doesn’t work. Yet I cling to the nightmare of being a person because, deep down, I mistakenly believe that I separated from God.
Now Jesus tells me the truth, that I am the Son of God, the Christ Mind, and can awaken to the reality of peace, love and joy. God loves me and His Will for me is perfect happiness. "The peace of God is the simple understanding that His Will is wholly without opposite." M-20 I want this.
To undo my belief in the ego/person self, I practice seeing that the ego and the images are false. I practice, practice, practice. I live so as to demonstrate that I am not an ego, that I do not value the ego’s falsehoods. As I let fearful perceptions go, the Holy Spirit replaces them with happy ones. I question beliefs. I ask the Holy Spirit for guidance. I become still and seek communion with God through prayer. Jesus gives me miracles—glimpses of my One Holy Self. And when I’m finally ready, I awaken.
Tags: Awakening, Ego, Forgiveness
