A Guilty Dream
My mind training must be working
Posted by aplecompte on May 23rd, 2009
I rarely remember dreams but early this morning I dreamed that a friend asked me to shoot someone for him because no one would suspect me. So I did it, partially reasoning that there was no life in bodies. It turned out the victim was a vice presidential candidate. I was able to pass through security in a hallway without arousing suspicion. But later I kept finding that I was holding a large syringe that belonged to my friend, no matter how many times I got rid of it. A woman seemed to be catching on to me, and then she had me cornered as I crouched by a table under which I was hiding a syringe. She came up to me in shorts and, to throw her off the murder possibility, I bit her on the thigh. [Hilarious now] Then I woke up feeling terribly guilty about committing murder and trapped. I was very relieved to find that it was only a dream.
For a year now I’ve been going deeply into the Course and into my mind, apparently with no strong protest from my ego. I am pleased to have had this dream because to me it shows that my ego is beginning to feel the heat from my strengthening Self, and it is becoming more desperate in trying to make me feel guilty.
