Forgiveness
Three views
Posted by aplecompte on March 27th, 2009
Forgiveness - View #1
I am dreaming.
My only function is to remember I am dreaming, see the false as false and let it go.
I dreamed up the world because I believed I separated from God. This is false. But, believing I separated, I felt enormous guilt and anticipation of punishment from God. This was so frightening that I adopted the insane ego thought system and the person self concept.
The ego wrote situations and events into the script allowing me to project my fears onto others and then perceive them as unfairly attacking me. I judge them as guilty of hurting me and feel right in defending myself by attacking them back. But this is just my present choice to separate from others and prove my vulnerable self concept to myself.
Any judgment I make is false because I imagined/dreamed up a situation in which I don’t really know anything. Even my everyday ordering of thought is an attempt to select from reality and make up my own, hence usurping God’s function and a source of guilt for me.
So I watch my mind. As I become aware of ego thoughts, I deny them and instantly ask the Holy Spirit to decide for me. Each change of mind is a miracle. I follow the guidance of the Holt Spirit in all things, for these are the thoughts of God and His will for me is perfect happiness.
As my experience of miracles builds I am able to make the final choice, the acceptance of the Atonement, the complete recognition that the imagined separation never happened.
Forgiveness - View #2
The truth: Everything is happening for my good; happiness is my birthright.
Problem: Events and other people can make me unhappy.
Solution: Forgiveness
An event occurs: “X” says “Y” to me.
I feel upset.
It appears clear to me that I am upset because X said Y.
I stop and ask myself what I really want to come of this:
Do I want to be right about X being bad and stay unhappy in my wrong mind? No.
Or
Do I want peace of mind enough to be willing to choose again, to choose for the Holy Spirit’s Purpose of forgiveness? Yes.
I realize that such appearances are a trick of my ego mind. The cause of my upset is the meaning I am reading into the event, my (mis)perception of the event. I am seeing a symbolic out-picturing of my chaotic state of mind. I identify my judgmental thoughts causing my upset:
“X is wrong to say y.”
“X is bad.”
I trace back my thoughts, which are generated from my beliefs: Tracing back beliefs
"I am an innocent self in a body vulnerable to attack."
"X is different from me; X is attacking me."
These beliefs stem from my unconscious belief that I separated from God, about which I feel tremendous guilt and fear of punishment. When projected by my ego mind onto the screen of the world, it looks like X is attacking me. The Holy Spirit helps me see the truth:
The separation never happened.
Those beliefs are false. I am really spirit and my brother and I are the same.
Therefore those thoughts and perceptions were false.
What I thought happened did not happen.
I forgive myself and X for my mistake and let it go, asking the Holy Spirit to help me see the truth, X’s innocence.
I feel relief and genuine happiness. Everything is happening for my good.
Forgiveness - View #3
I watch my mind. If I am not joyous I know this need not be. I do not want this ego temptation, so…
I turn to the Holy Spirit in quietness and give Him the problem:
What am I thinking? ______________________________
This thought is causing the effect I am experiencing.
What is the belief behind the thought?
Guilt “is but the fabric of a senseless dream.” T-27.II.6:11 I still dream that I separated from God. I feel guilty and sinful for this attack on God and on my brother. I expect God’s punishment.
In my desire to feel innocent, I have unconsciously projected attack onto someone or some situation in the world and I hold a grievance. I believe I am a person, a body doomed to die, and I have forgotten that I am the Son of God. I am trapped in false perceptions and false judgments.
This belief is false, a hallucination with no reality whatsoever. It is not true! I am not guilty. God loves me right now and always.
The thought that I projected onto this situation is totally false.
"I have done this thing, and it is this I would undo." T-27.VIII.11
I want to overlook this nothingness, to forgive it.
I ask the Holy Spirit to take this problem and to let me see peace, joy and love instead, for myself and for my sinless brother. I prefer to be happy in the truth that I am God’s Son.
Tags: Ego, Forgiveness
