How to Get it Right
From a loose cannon on the holodeck
Posted by aplecompte on June 25th, 2009
Last night, half asleep, I was again trying to figure out what went wrong at a job I was fired from. The conflict with Lynn occurred because I was subtly judging her and she became defensive. I should have forgiven what I perceived as her attack, completely forgiven her and been truly helpful to her. But I guess I couldn’t pull that off at the time. I woke up and thought about it some more.
Could I have made the right judgments and decisions?
No. The situation was a bunch of fragmented symbols arranged in my perception by my ego for the express purpose of having me think I was being unfairly treated. [Whoa!]
Could it have turned out differently?
No. The script was already written.
Was there any reality at all to that situation?
No. It was smoke and mirrors in my wrong mind.
Why do I think about that situation?
Because I’m still a sucker for smoke and mirrors and I carry ontological guilt. “Ontological” means it comes with my existence. Ontological guilt “arises from the idea that you could leave the Mind of God.” David Hoffmeister, Awakening through A Course in Miracles, page 337.
I am thinking about the situation now because my ego, my wrong mind, is spinning it to bolster my unconscious belief that I separated from God.
What can I do about it?
Choose again.
When I am in my wrong mind I think that I know; but I do not. I cannot know anything in the world because it is an illusion. So I admit to myself and to the Holy Spirit that I am lost in my wrong mind. I let go of trying to figure it out. I ask the Holy Spirit to let me see peace instead. I remind myself that I am God’s Son, complete and healed and whole.
Presto! I’m in my right mind.
